Help my hormones are going crazy right now!?

I've never been in a relationship because I never thought I needed one and I never was really attracted to anyone until recently. It's been hard because it's the same sex. I REALLY want a lover and idk what to do. I'm 19 and such. I have flirted with girls before, even though I didn't feel physical attraction, but I don't know if I would want to be with them. I just can't stop thinking about love right now and I've pretty much snapped. I've always tried to be "perfect" and now I know that I'm not and I just need another really bad! Help or might do terrible things; I don't know what I'm capable of!!! XO